An Extra Special Baby Quilt....

I finished it! Took me a lot longer than a quilt normally does... hit a few roadblocks along the way. I got all of the top done and then received the toxicology/autopsy report of Caitlyn's.... I think I went straight into a depression after reading that, to be honest. I stopped caring about pretty much everything. No energy. Just a hopeless feeling. It went on that way for several weeks and I finally broke down and went to the doctor. A bright and shiny new Prozac prescription later, I can at least function again somewhat. Sometimes the hardest thing in the world is admitting that you cant handle everything that life has tossed at you, and asking for help.

This was without a doubt, the most meaningful thing that I have ever sewn. It was such an honor to be able to thank Trooper Gee in my own way like this. Through all of this I have been able to get to know Trooper Gee and his boss, Sergeant Godino. Both of them have been so patient and caring to this crazy Mom - I will never ever forget their kindness. Both of them mean a lot to me. I wrote a "letter to the editor" for our local paper explaining how lucky all of us citizens are to have such people as this looking out for us. Not only do they do an amazing job, but they have amazing hearts to go right along with it. Thats rare these days - and needs to be recognized. I worry about them now in doing the jobs that they do, I guess I feel connected to them both. I told Trooper gee that I was just going to have to "adopt" him... you cant have too many mothers in this world can you? Like I said, they have patience with this crazy Mom... and I am blessed by it.

**Update** I was blessed to get to meet the BEAUTIFUL little girl that this quilt was made for. Such a sweetheart. She seemed to love her new "blanket" and loved her new stuffed animal too. I had decided to give her a stuffed own that I had given to Caitlyn last Christmas, our last Christmas with her. I remember her laughing about me giving a 19 yo a stuffed animal, but me reminding her that she would always be my baby no matter how old she got. After the accident, I found it and it was as pristine as the day I gave it to her. I asked and he didnt mind me gifting it to this sweet little girl - so I did. It warms my heart that so much love from me to Caitlyn is going to be passed on. Not just in the stuffed animal but in the quilt also.